The Writer’s Block

I would be stuck Sitting at my desk With a piece of paper Unable to write Not knowing what to say Or how to say it. I felt like a painter Sitting at an easel Not knowing what to paint Not knowing how to make That first brush stroke.  * I knew I had a [...]

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I Just Won’t!

I vowed to myself “I will never be Like my Dad was Toward me. I just won’t!” I wanted to have Nothing to do with him. His path Was not mine. * Then one day I read a poem. * A poem I had written When I was Fourteen years old. * The poem read: [...]

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How My Writing Got Locked Up

“How My Writing Got Locked Up.” An author writes an inner child exercise, and discovers a horrible incident with his grandmother when he was eight years old that locked up his writing for many years. Published in Life As A Human. Photo Credit: “Locked Up” Derekskey @ flickr.com. Creative Commons. Some Rights Reserved.

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I Can Have You Committed!

“I Can Have You Committed!” An author writes an inner child exercise, and discovers a threat by his grandmother when he was eight years old that locked up his writing for many years. Published in Life As A Human. Photo Credit: “Henry Hobson Richardson 1870 Buffalo State Asylum Buffalo NY 1332″ Bobistraveling @ Flickr.com Creative [...]

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The Intervention – Response Letter

This letter was written in response to a bogus intervention, as chronicled in the post “The Betrayal.” What I did to deal with my anger is written in the post “The Anger Contract.” My sponsor in one of the 12 step programs, after finding out the details of the night the group took me to [...]

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The Anger Contract

This Anger Contract was my response to the events chronicled in my previous post, “The Betrayal.” A bogus Intervention had been done to me, and had forced me to get in touch with deep anger that I had been trying to release for several years.  I knew I needed to do something radical to handle [...]

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The Betrayal

My next several blog posts are all related to the same topic.  They deal with something that happened to me in July of 1988.  My Dad had died the previous Thanksgiving, and I was still in the grief process over that loss.  As well, I was still involved with a 12 step program for people [...]

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If You Had Any Sense

(Written August 8, 1990) It was June of 1969.  I had just come home from my freshman year at Texas Tech.  I had not declared a major except for General Studies.  I liked my psychology and sociology courses, and thought about going that direction for a major. We lived in Fort Worth, and during the [...]

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The Final Scene

(Written October 1988) “But why are you leaving?” she asks, seeing the struggle written in his face. He glances at her, looks quickly down, stares blankly at the coffee cup in front of him.  He picks it up, sips, sets it down carefully, slowly.  The waitress stops at their booth and freshens their coffee, customers [...]

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