I Just Won’t!

I vowed to myself “I will never be Like my Dad was Toward me. I just won’t!” I wanted to have Nothing to do with him. His path Was not mine. * Then one day I read a poem. * A poem I had written When I was Fourteen years old. * The poem read: [...]

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When I Got Honest With God

“Dear God.  I am really angry with You!” Just saying those words out loud made me hold my breath.  Would I bring down the fabled wrath for having said that?  But it was true – it was the most honest statement I’d ever made to God since I’d started trying to pray.  I was really [...]

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I Abandon A Book – Again!

“I Abandon A Book – Again!” An author has several agents interested in his novel. He works hard to revise his manuscript, only to be crushed when it needs further work. He walks away from the book. Published in Life As A Human. Photo credit: “Self Portrait, Walking Away: On one of the jetties at [...]

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Words of Wisdom, Talk of Tigers

” Words of Wisdom, Talk of Tigers” – A new post on Life As A Human magazine.  It honors a video I recorded after I had a radio interview with Cyrus Webb, where he expanded my understanding of the book I had written!  Amazing experience! Here is a link to the interview that sparked the [...]

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PTSD – And Didn’t Know It!

I spent a lot of time walking around Houston in the middle ’80s with many of the symptoms of PTSD, and didn’t know it.  I was having flashbacks – of occurrences I didn’t remember.  I felt like the man in the Bourne Identity with amnesia, who was getting glimpses of his past – a past [...]

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A Conversation With Dad

Written August 5, 1990 All I really wanted to say was “I’m sorry.” I had said some hurtful things to my Father. But he had been dead for three years. How do make amends after they’re gone? It wasn’t perfect, not like him being there, but I was talking to him anyway. Just making up [...]

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The Intervention – Response Letter

This letter was written in response to a bogus intervention, as chronicled in the post “The Betrayal.” What I did to deal with my anger is written in the post “The Anger Contract.” My sponsor in one of the 12 step programs, after finding out the details of the night the group took me to [...]

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The Anger Contract

This Anger Contract was my response to the events chronicled in my previous post, “The Betrayal.” A bogus Intervention had been done to me, and had forced me to get in touch with deep anger that I had been trying to release for several years.  I knew I needed to do something radical to handle [...]

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The Betrayal

My next several blog posts are all related to the same topic.  They deal with something that happened to me in July of 1988.  My Dad had died the previous Thanksgiving, and I was still in the grief process over that loss.  As well, I was still involved with a 12 step program for people [...]

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Healing My Anger – Defusing a Time Bomb

For many years, I would have told you that yes, there was drinking in my house while I was growing up, but I got out just fine, and it didn’t really affect me.  Then when I was in my early ‘30s, I started to see signs that such was not the case. I worked for [...]

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